With all the turmoil that has been our lives as of late, I have found myself in a state of despair. It isn’t chronic, this too shall pass. In fact the load is lightening already. The big news and changes are Sir’s new job. It was a huge decision for our family and He spent… Continue reading Giving Away His Happiness
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It’s been a week. Who am I kidding, it’s been a couple of months lol. Even though we’ve got a lot going on Sir remains my constant. He’s not freaking out. He’s not overreacting. He’s not falling apart. He is stressing but no one would ever know. He has this tremendous ability to remain calm.… Continue reading Timing
We’ve been cruising along at a pretty good clip for the last couple weeks. Things were starting to mellow out and feel good again, that permanent smile returned to my lips, life has been good. Then there was change. It’s not that I dislike change… It spices things up and keeps life interesting but when… Continue reading And Then There Was Change…
I’m learning that there are things I don’t need or want to know. I struggle with letting those things go because I have been conditioned for so many years to be in control. I don’t want to be in control. It is not my nature to be in control, however the majority of my adult… Continue reading Practice makes Perfect
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These days I really don’t know the answer to that. I’ve strayed so far from who I’ve been taught to be and I don’t like it. I don’t recognize the person I’ve become. I feel like I was such a good girl for such a long time and blew it all in one fell swoop.… Continue reading Who am I?
My gut hurt all week. I knew I was wrong. I messed up and I knew I would pay. I didn’t know when but I knew Sir would wait until HE was ready… And until then I would have to be patient, suffering my own punishment. I spent the week beating myself up. I cried… Continue reading Pay your dues Part 1
A lot of not-so-great things have gone down the past few days. I’m not one to air dirty laundry so I will not be going into the details here. However I will be diving into how I responded and how to proceed. I’m ashamed of how I handled pretty much everything. I took a massive… Continue reading Deeper Submission
Sometimes society gets the best of me even when it isn’t directly involved. There are times I allow thoughts to meddle in my brain that are unwelcome in our dynamic. Most of the time I can wrangle these in and tell society to stuff it, other times these thoughts lead to a discussion with Sir.… Continue reading Do not disturb
